Well hello lovelies,
Today I wanted to talk to you all about breastfeeding.
When I had Holly I wanted to breast feed. Holly was amazing and took straight away. At the time when I had Holly I was 24. I was fine feeding her in the house with just Mark and I. But when there was other people there or when we were out, it was a different story.
If other people were in the house with us, which once you have had a new baby is constant for the first 6 weeks or so. I would go up to my room to feed her.
We were quite lucky where we would go shopping as there are two baby feeding rooms you can go to.
I just didn't feel comfortable whipping my boob out to feed my child. Which I know sounds terrible!! Eventually I started to pump and my milk supply dwindled and eventually, Holly had to use formula. To be honest I don't think Holly really noticed. But I felt like a failure.
We have been thinking recently about extending our family. Which gets me thinking about breast feeding again and I will definitely do it. But I think this time round I'm not going to be as shy and awkward.
I was in denial right up till she was born that I was even having a baby and I don't think I really bonded properly with her for quite some time. I think this affected me feeding her.
I didn't look into breast feeding covers or anything like that that would have enabled me to feed her and feel comfortable about it.
However becoming a blogger has really opened my eyes to all the different things you can get to help you out. Reading all these other mummy bloggers have really helped me.
Next time round I will definitely have a proper feeding cover to cover me up when feeding her as I still don't think I would be confident enough to whip my boob out in public without being covered, which is still terrible to say but it's true. I don't think after reading all these other blogs now though that I will be as shy about it as I was before.
I kind of just wanted to say all of this because I know how hard it is for first time mums. I know how hard it is to breast feed. An even if just one person struggling with this reads this post, I just want to say that, I think reading other mummy bloggers really has helped me with this. An if you are struggling, try reading some as well. There are lots on bloglovin. There are also lots of communities like netmums which I have found have great support groups. Being part of a support group doesn't make you weak. I found it made me feel stronger to an extent, knowing I wasn't alone as I think everyone feels in those first few weeks. Even though you have lots of people around you, you can still feel lonely.
I think some of my issues came from how sexualised boobs are. society has made them into something that we should talk about. I think as a young mum this really has an effect on you. I wish i had researched it more than i did. To be honest it was a last minute thing when i decided to do it.
Let me know your thought :)
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